It's been a long day. 3 years, this places abandoned for 3 years.
But sometimes, suddenly, there are some thought to be share.

Just wondering, does everyone of you have a friend are truly like "bro" or "sis"?
Those days, during secondary school time.
I do think I have, a lot.
I got a bunch of bro around me.
I don't feel lonely at all.

Till the moment, right after the conflict comes in.
My world, instantly turn to black.
Black, dark, despair, isolated, no light.
That was the first time, I feel lonely.
It just terrified, no more hopes, isolation,
There comes a deep, truly deep depression.

But till the moment I wish to end all the depression in extreme way,
There comes the light, he was there,
Been drag out by him, and have a truly deep talk.
Both of us ended the talk with tears.
But it was a good day, because
That was the day, the day I found my first Bro in my life.

The second one, kinda, funny.
Both of us were not so friend during primary school.
Suppose to be same class on Form 1, but not.
Become classmate again after 2 years of separation.
But now, turn out one of my Bro in my life.
Reason, I got no idea. I don't know when.
But what I know is, He will be always supporting me
Till the end of the time.

I do talk a lot with this guy, third guy, even we just meet for 1 month.
Till he went study aboard to... somewhere else but I won't tell XD
We do talk a lot, and we did managed to keep contact.

But, life never be so perfect.

I did one thing, I had a fight with my ex-roommate.
The flame last for 1 and half years.
When the moment I felt "Alright, enough for this. Time to melt this!"
I was invited him to for a lunch, and I keep the word for that day.
But, It was too late, I never had that chances to say "sorry" to him.
Left one big, or I should say biggest regret in my life.
As I tried to pretend nothing happen, it can't.
Till the end, I told him, with extreme sadness.
Regrets,  I just can't described in words.

He come to talk with me, even in the middle of the night.
And thanks to him, I feel better, and calmed.
And that day onward, I found the third Bro in my life.
Till now, we still contact to each others, when either one of us needs a talk.

I used to think that friendship will become greater when the time last longer,
But now, I still agree this. But need to add few keywords.
"Tolerance", "unspoken agreement" and “caring".
And I'm lucky enough, I found them.


After today, this blog goes AFK few month, or years again.
Or, might no one realize there is a blog over here.

Nevermind, it's my blog. Just a place share my thought.